winter fruit salad

Apples, pears, bananas, grapes, raisins, walnuts, sugar, cinnamon and lemon juice...

...delicious breakfast!

what is life

A couple of days ago I discussed with a friend about the meaning of life.

"An endless journey to nowhere"

nice way to draw this concept

We were joking, but maybe this is not completely wrong. Our interior life is just an endless journey to nowhere, that ends when the body dies.

Can computers think? Can they feel?

very interesting:

http://soe.stanford.edu/research/ate/shoham.html

to you

Thanks for having shared this night with me.

It was tender, it was delightful, it was humorous as we can be. It was partially unexpected and partially desired. It was 'human contact' in the most naive of the meanings: two bodies looking for the warmth of the other's body. Just as usually we are two souls looking for the warmth of the other's soul. It was natural and cozy. It smelled of 'everyday'.

Thanks, my friend.

shhhhhh

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TkDYV_gAMnk

snow, cold ,explosions of good intentions, people, wind, a hot cup of coffee, new hopes

History

If one should sum up in a few lines these last 15 years of Italian political history, one could say the following:

the dearest friend of one of the leaders who symbolized corruption of the political elite in the country became the richest man, the most famous enterpriser, the most loved prime minister, the leader of the most voted party;

the secretary of the ex-neofascist party became president of the Chamber of Deputies, third most important political position in the country;

one of the directors of the same party was elected as Mayor of the capital city;

the opposition was democratically dismantled and was given the task to self-destroy;

the last directors of what once had been the largest Communist party in Western Europe let spontaneously the leadership to a man of the Christian Democracy, their historical opponent;

the remaining of the left wing divided so many times that it finally reached microscopic dimensions;

its heritage was collected mainly by one judge;

in the meantime in all the country the phenomenon of patrols spread.

But what came after is the most scaring part.

(Giovanni De Mauro, Internazionale, February 27th, 2009, freely translated)

you don't, alias "just little bits of history repeating"

Now I probably understand. I finally found a reason to forget you and to be angry with you.

You didn't love me. But I cannot blame you for that. It's not something that you can choose.

You didn't call me. You didn't write me. You didn't plan any future together. You didn't tell me the words I needed to hear in that moment. You didn't tell me that for you we had no future. You didn't buy me a gift for my birthday. You didn't surprise me by coming to the airport. You didn't tell me the truth.

I know why you didn't. You always told me that you're a lazy person. Your motto is just enjoying life. But relationships need effort. And you have the quality of surviving with the minimal effort. But the minimal effort often is not enough. And I'm not only talking about love relationships.

And now again you don't call. You don't write. I cannot write you don't care, because I know that would be wrong. But sometimes intentions have to be accompanied by actions. And that requires effort. Not just the minimal one.

Enjoy your new life, your new relationships, your Eastern friends. Maybe if you overcome the threshold of minimal effort you will also pass exams and find a job. 

But now I'm asking to you something. After many things you didn't do, please "don't do" one more thing. Don't make fun of me.

".. just little bits of history repeating"

The bright side of the day

It's not always easy. But that's all we should do in hard times. Looking up to the sky, smile, think how lucky we are even though - of course- we have our problems too. And realize how incredible is our ability to smile each other. Maybe some say that also animals can do that. But, well, how wonderful it is that you are walking, you raise your eyes from the floor, look into the eyes of that little girl/old woman/young guy and smile. He/She would usually smile back to you.

There's a million mouths to feed
And I've got everything I need
I'm breathing
And there's a hurting thing inside
But I've got everything to hide
I'm grieving

Hey hey I saved the world today
Everybody's happy now
The bad things gone away
And everybody's happy now
The good things here to stay
Please let it stay

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wa_lkpBVkXU

to my friend blue eyes

This is the way I imagine you

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nF0idhugwEA&feature=related

anger

Hate my self-destroying pain, hate you because of your selfishness.

Knowing that there is hope, but still fighting to find the strength to resist till that moment, to wait.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8Yv_PunF284

and tired of those words, of the way others' eyes see me.

nightmares

Halfway through the night 
I wake up in a dream 
Echoes in my head 
Make every whisper turn into a scream 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=moaO7f6-tws

again

restless, afraid to do wrong, plenty of energy traveling through my veins

maybe I should go out running, but now I must be in the office

illusion

I thought you cared me, I thought you would have called from time to time, I thought I was anyway important.

And I don't care your laziness and your appointments and your bad memory. It's you and me. And a relationship cannot go on just one side, that is actually why there is not you and me anymore.

But I thought that the telephone would have rung from time to time. That I could have found consolation in you in some of my dark moments. Because I have been there when you needed it.

...Illusion never changed into something real...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZuDufIxiQRI

dreaming of summer

Why do we all dream of summer? Why is it often our favourite season...

...well, in my case:

Strawberries cherries and an angel's kiss in spring
My summer wine is really made from all these things

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EOs2TSXTOkQ&feature=related

Tonight I'd really like to drink a glass of summer wine together with you :) Wanna join?

dangerous smile

...never met a stranger who smiled to you, without reason, just because he is a human being like you...
It happened to me today at the canteen and he also wished me "Mahlzeit", "enjoy your meal" :)

But in a whisper she'd arrive
And dance into my life.
Like a music melody,
Like a lovers song.

Oh tonight, you killed me with your smile.
So beautiful and wild, so beautiful.
Oh tonight, you killed me with your smile.
So beautiful and wild, so beautiful and wild.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XaW8FyL7xZs

ideas for a tattoo

write 'shake well before any use', like you can find on sprayers...

...at the bottom of your back, above your bottom!