aiuto :)

e per la seconda volta in pochi giorni torno a casa e piango di frustrazione. che poi per carità piangere è molto meglio che tenersela dentro. ma non è normale.

e pensare che ho iniziato tutto questo pensando che fosse quello che amavo fare. e forse in parte è vero. ma non capisco come delle persone si debbano annullare per questo. e io ho la fortuna di farlo in codizioni molto agiate. figurati quelli sottopagati. ma probabilmente a loro non pesa. mi sento svuotata. e più ore trascorro a lavorare e sempre di più ci si aspetta che io lavori.

domani è un altro giorno, più positivo. e meno male che ci sono gli amici

wash away

tears washed away some stuff yesterday evening.

stuff that it is good to leave in 2010.

and live rejoicing every, every day

why else

this is gonna be good.

why else would I be crying?


musicaling in the morning

tears

today I was so near to crying. at German class. and that afternoon came to my mind.

I still used to live in my old apartment. I think it was spring, maybe Saturday afternoon, or Sunday afternoon. We had just made love. And you told me about your fears, your story. And a tear touched your cheek.

I hope that life is being good with you. And you have changed your mind. Two more years.

I've been down this road
Walking the line that's painted by pride
And i have made mistakes in my life that i just can't hide.

But I believe I'm ready
for what love has to bring
I've got myself together
Now i'm ready to sing.

I've been searching my soul tonight
I know there's so much more to life
Now I know I can shine a light
to find my way back home.

Baby.
Yeah.
Oh Yeah.

I think I need to believe that it works - love, couplehood, partnerships. The idea that when people come together they stay together...I have to take that with me to bed every night, even if I'm going to bed alone.
Ally