really?

He broke up with you and that's enough reason right there to hate him. He does not love you. Do you really want to be with someone who does not love you? Right now you are in pain but eventually even if you stayed with him in the future you guys would have some major problems and you would end up hating each other anyways. Most of the people in relationships do break up. Just realize it that he did not love you and that you have to be with someone who loves you and is willing to do anything for you. This guy left you so you did not lose anything. He does not think of you as a necessary part of his life so there is no point of making him part of your life. Forget that @#%$*.

http://www.ehow.com/how_4720598_forget-your-boyfriend.html

rainbows

Somewhere, over the rainbow, way up high.
There's a land that I heard of Once in a lullaby.
Somewhere, over the rainbow, skies are blue.
And the dreams that you dare to dream
Really do come true.
Someday I'll wish upon a star and wake up where the clouds are far Behind me.
Where troubles melt like lemon drops, Away above the chimney tops.
That's where you'll find me.
Somewhere, over the rainbow, bluebirds fly. Birds fly over the rainbow,
Why then - oh, why can't I?
If happy little bluebirds fly beyond the rainbow,
Why, oh, why can't I?

bSIElin

Saturday in a very particular place

Sunday karaokeing in a flea market

and that cafè near the Oranienburger Strasse, and then in the underground the man singing "I'm just a gigolò"...

and remember

bERlin

Today I'm leaving.

You know those cities that you always heard of and you promised yourself that one day you would have gone there. I have lots of them. Many in Europe and a few around the world.

And today I'm going there. I've already been there, but for another reason. At that time that was not the reason of my trip. And I hope I'll be able to love the city independently of him.

It's a city. And I want to overlap my image of that city with new meanings. The first trip with this friend, just the two of us. What this city represented in the history of XX century. What this city represents to the Germans nowadays.

Let us stay friends...

Always in relationships there are (at least) two possible sides. The still loving one and the one who chose to end the relationship.

And almost always there it comes the one million dollar question.

I used to think that I would have stayed friend and in contact with all the people who crossed my life, especially my ex-significant others...

But maybe it is not possible. Maybe it is not necessary. Maybe this time you don't want to. 

Feel

Come and hold my hand
I just wanna feel
Real love fill the home that I live in
'Cause I got too much life
Running thru my veins
Going to waste
I don't wanna die
But I ain't keen on living either
Before I fall in love
I'm preparing to leave her 

Scare myself to death
That's why I keep on running
Before I've arrived
I can see myself coming
I just wanna feel
Real love fill the home that I live in
'Cause I got too much life
Running thru my veins
Going to waste
And I need to feel
Real love and the love ever after
I can not get enough 

I just wanna feel
Real love fill the home that I live in
I got too much love
Running thru my veins
To go to waste 

I just wanna feel
Real love and the love ever after
There's a hole in my soul
You can see it in my face
It's a real big place 

Come and hold my hand
I wanna contact the living
Not sure I understand
This road I've been given
Not sure I understand
Not sure I understand
Not sure I understand
Not sure I understand

in the arms of an angel

Spend all your time waiting for that second chance
For the break that will make it ok
There's always some reason to feel “not good enough"?
And it's hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction, oh beautiful release
Memories seep from my veins
They may be empty and weightless, and maybe
I'll find some peace tonight

In the arms of an Angel, fly away from here
From this dark, cold hotel room, and the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage of your silent reverie
You're in the arms of an Angel; may you find some comfort here

So tired of the straight line, and everywhere you turn
There's vultures and thieves at your back
The storm keeps on twisting, you keep on building the lies
That you make up for all that you lack
It don't make no difference, escaping one last time
It's easier to believe
In this sweet madness, oh this glorious sadness
That brings me to my knees

In the arms of an Angel, far away from here
From this dark, cold hotel room, and the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage of your silent reverie
In the arms of an Angel; may you find some comfort here

how to be satisfied :)

only a PhD student can be happy of meeting a professor, about 60 years old, who is famous thanks to Riemann solver and entropy fix stuff :) 

people who changed the world and nobody will never know that!

to whom

to whom will I find myself saying this?

So, so you think you can tell
Heaven from Hell,
Blue skies from pain.
Can you tell a green field
From a cold steel rail?
A smile from a veil?
Do you think you can tell?

Did they get you to trade
Your heroes for ghosts?
Hot ashes for trees?
Hot air for a cool breeze?
Cold comfort for change?
Did you exchange
A walk on part in the war,
For a lead role in a cage?

How I wish, how I wish you were here.
We're just two lost souls
Swimming in a fish bowl,
Year after year,
Running over the same old ground.
What have we found
The same old fears.
Wish you were here.