I'll go crazy

Sitting in this gloomy day in my office. Sleepy, eyes burning. And I just feel the need for a frisson. Where is that magnolia?

She’s a rainbow and she loves the peaceful life.
Knows I’ll go crazy if I don’t go crazy tonight.
There’s a part of me in the chaos that’s quiet.
And there’s a part of you that wants me to riot.

Everybody needs to cry or needs to spit.
Every sweet tooth needs just a little hit.
Every beauty needs to go out with an idiot.
How can you stand next to the truth and not see it?
A change of heart comes slow.

It’s not a hill, it’s a mountain.
As you start out the climb.
Do you believe me, or are you doubting.
We’re gonna make it all the way to the light.
But I know I’ll go crazy if I don’t go crazy tonight.

Every generation gets a chance to change the world.
Pity the nation that won't listen to your boys and girls.
’Cause the sweetest melody is the one we haven’t heard.
Is it true the perfect love drives out all fear?
The right to be ridiculous is something I hold dear.
Oh, but a change of heart comes slow.

fibrillazione ventricolare

Hast du schon mal jemanden getroffen und hast das Gefühl gehabt, dass du diese Person schon dein Leben lang vermisst? So als hättest du alles nur geträumt und dann wachst du endlich auf.

PERLa di saggezza

Learning from programming languages:

Perl has two slogans.

The first is "There's more than one way to do it", commonly known as TMTOWTDI.

The second slogan is "Easy things should be easy and hard things should be possible".

open

where, when, what

who (there must be a who)

so many open possibilities, most of the people seem to have their future clearly outlined and predetermined. I do not. I can not. I do not know. I want to do so many things, be so many me's, know so many you's. too many? is there a way to then return back? or I have already chosen my destiny without realizing it?

did I do a good choice? is this really what I want? is it really true that I cannot be like them? that I am better?!!?

all this travelling... are more the pro or cons? who said that being alone in a hotel room in a foreign city without having anyone to call is something good? and then again the smile of an Indian scientist who used to work for NATO makes your day. Or that old RUssian professor that is going to turn 81 on Sunday and is working in the far East and cannot speak English but turned the small research community in which you are in upside down.

what, where, when.

who

is it good?

I'm a low-maintenance woman

jasmine

I drink jasmine tea and it smells like you. and in my memory your sweet smile and that mole.

I admit it

I was looking at the strawberries I bought yesterday. they are so dry nowadays. strawberries. so they do not go to waste too soon.
there must be the man in charge of drying strawberries. with an hairdrier.

sleepless night can have bad effects on my mind

eh eh

for people who love everything about the porn except sex

kids

The time has come.

I'm single, so they do not ask yet "When are you getting married?", but quite often the topic comes up.
"Do you want children?".
"I'm not sure about that".
And then I get the most astonishing reactions.
"Oh, you want to make career..."
"But that is why we are on this planet!"
"Don't you want to let your trace/genes on Earth?"
"But that is our way to be immortal!"

First, if you say something like that, you are stupid. Life offers multiple choices luckily, I do not believe in the choice family or career. There are plenty of other possibilities to be happy, including a combination of the both.
I believe in evolution. I do not believe in sovranatural forces. I do not believe in the big plan, so there is not reason why we are on this planet. Fate. Coincidence. Science. Who cares. Anyway my goal in life is not just reproduction. We are too many on this planet. So if I'll have a child it is not because our species needs it.

The reason why I am not really sure about that is that I'm afraid. And selfish. But maybe my selfishness will cause less harm that the selfishness of saying "I'm having children because I want to propagate my genes or be immortal"... What?!?! I hope you people are joking...

Someone else said this better than I can:
"Procreating, in fact, implies precise responsibilities and a lifestyle choice. A choice which changes animal behavior, and changes even more the life of a woman.

Who believes that the arrival of a child does not lead to changes in their life is wrong.

A child does not ask to be born. Having a child must not be a whim, but a choice of serving, giving oneself and also one's time.

It is not the children that need to be embedded in our lives, but us who must change our life according to their needs. If we do not do this, we could cause children to grow up alone, without self-esteem and little self-confidence.

Children hungry for attention, because they did not get enough of it when they had greatest need, i.e., in the the first months of life."