com-promise

I do not know. some confused thoughts.

talking to friends, it was said that if you never settle somewhere it is hard to find someone. i look at people around me. most of them are in a couple. but I also think that a good percentage are just in a relationship for the sake of being in a relationship. and this is something I do not understand (most of the times at least). Yes, I travel alone. I take planes, trains, taxis. Yes, sometimes I have to go to the cinema on my own if I really wanna watch a movie. Yes, I have most of my meals alone. Yes, on Saturday mornings I am one of the few singles around for the shopping days (most singles are not early-wakers).

And it is not like I always love this. But it is just the way it is. And in turn I have many other things. I am leaving 3 weeks for Japan and I do not have to discuss this with anyone.

And to celebrate one of the biggest day of my life I have my family and hopefully a bunch of very good friends. And it sounds good.

It is a period of changes, so I decided to add one more. this kind of change. shorter hair. after kind of 5 years with the same cut it was time. still have to get used to it, but it feels freshly new. and thsi is good.

Carrie: The longer I sat at that table, the more alone I felt. And it really hit me: I am 35 and alone!
Miranda: You are not alone.
Carrie: No, I know I have you guys, but... and really, I hate myself a little for saying this, but... it felt really sad not to have a man in my life who cares about me. No special guy to wish me happy birthday. No goddamn soulmate. And I don't even know if I believe in soulmates.
Charlotte: Don't laugh at me, but maybe we could be each others soulmates? And then we could let men be just these great nice guys to have fun with?
Samantha: Well, that sounds like a plan.
Carrie: I'm 35. 35 is not 25.
Miranda: Thank God!
Carrie: I'm 35!
Samantha: Oh, shut the f*** up. I'm 140!