let it gi

Osservare il tempo che passa, le stagioni. Le foglie dei cedri divenire rosse. La cena autunnale con riso e castagne.

Osservare.

Let it go.

autumn song

trying to come up with an autumn song, I ended up with this. which has nothing to do with autumn, but is anyway lots of energy. so why not?

mi sono girata un attimo

ed è già autunno.

sweet

a simple tuesday morning of fears and autumn approaching asks for
- yoghurt with blueberries
- a nice long shower
- my sweet 13 pink dress
- jack johnson

the way I feel

I found these great photos.

they perfectly express the way one feels some days.

when it is raining and you are traveling by train on your own.

to a dear person.

or back from a trip.

wondering about the future.

or having the blues.

The photos were taken by Adriano Zanni under the license Creative Commons

november rain?

Nope, november snow :)

Yep!

E' Natale, non soffrire piu'...

I'm dreaming of a white Christmas
Just like the ones I used to know
Where the treetops glisten,
and children listen
To hear sleigh bells in the snow

caro diario

Oggi e' una di quelle giornate in cui sento pressante il bisogno di contatto umano, di belle e calde parole. Non che sia qualcosa di inusuale per me.

E quindi mi ritrovo a scrivere e mandare mail e sms ad amici vecchi e nuovi con riflessioni, manifestazioni d'affetto o semplici 'come va?'. e altrettanti mesaggi che scrivo vengono direttamente cancellati prima di essere inviati.

perche'? perche' credo di essere in bisogno di contatto umano in misura 'superiore alla media'. e quindi qualche volta spavento, stufo, annoio. o semplicemente ottengo come risposta il silenzio. e siccome quel silenzio fa piu' male dell'assenza di contatti, sto provando ad imparare a trattenermi.

non e' una bella cosa da fare. ma l'esperienza mi ha insegnato che e' probabilmente cio' che mi tocca fare. e quindi sto imparando ad impegnare gran parte del mio tempo per me stessa ed eventualmente anche da sola. a coccolarmi. a provare a parlare con me. ad esprimermi in altri modi.

si sta avvicinando il 12 novembre. un anno fa quella data ha segnato il giorno in cui ti ho perso. forse perche' tu non eri pronto. forse perche' la mia vita spaventa. e da allora il cuore non ha piu' battuto cosi' forte. in modo positivo cio' mi ha portato tranquillita', fiducia in me, ottimismo, meno pianti, meno domande e tanto tempo per me. ma che peccato che per arrivare a questo ho dovuto camminare in direzione opposta a te, e non al tuo fianco.

pictoresque

take 3 friends, your native language, an incredibly warm autumn day, a wood and a 'kletterwald'.

take some vertigo, strong heart-beating, fear, fun, laughs, making fun of the others. I loved the part in which we were sliding :)

and when the others did the path who was 22 meters high, I waited on the ground. This forest with people climbing and sliding and jumping at different heights, the sun filtering among the leaves, the first yellow leaves falling down... I should have had a camera.

cold

magnolia is in a strange mood. this week her favorite colleagues are out of town, she feels a little lonely, her roommate is moving out (stress+variable new roommate), she is not exactly what you would call focused on work.

but today mr cluster is back at work, that is already good news. and she decided to focus her thoughts on the small trip of next weekend, nice people, nice activities and 5 hours on regional trains, where she will do her best not to get ill :)

don't bring me down

Tonight I'm gonna have myself a real good time
I feel alive and the world it's turning inside out Yeah!
I'm floating around in ecstasy
So don't stop me now don't stop me
'Cause I'm having a good time having a good time

no matter what they say
words can bring me down
i am beautiful
in every single way
yes words can bring me down
oh no oh
so don't you bring me down
today

me too

Wer will schon normal sein?

und wilkommen Herbst, glad to see you again.

the end of October

Wondering why it is so hard to get involved, to let you take my hands. Why do I have that awkward sensation. Why does he always come back to my mind, as vivid as if he actually would be here. It seems like I actually look for such situations. Do I? Is it that I don't want to bind me? Maybe I'm not ready? Maybe I just want to feel the centre of the attentions of everyone? 

Come up to meet you, tell you I'm sorry 

You don't know how lovely you are. 

I had to find you, tell you I need you, 

Tell you I set you apart.  

Tell me your secrets and ask me your questions, 

Oh lets go back to the start.

 Running in circles, 

Comin' in tails 

Heads on a science apart.  

Nobody said it was easy, 

It's such a shame for us to part. 

Nobody said it was easy, 

No one ever said it would be this hard. 

Oh take me back to the start.  

I was just guessin' at numbers and figures, 

Pulling the puzzles apart. 

Questions of science, science and progress 

Do not speak as loud as my heart.

diamond

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O8Vao8uDi7Y

I'll breathe
the smell of barns
and peace for those who'll still be there
and for the bakers.

I'll be rain
and rain you will be,
my eyes will get clear
and the snowfields will flourish.

We'll learn to walk
to walk together hand by hand on Sunday...

I'll wait that the winemakers will open,
I will look older
and you will be older.

New distances
will get us closer
from a sky, Diamond,
our eyes will see

soldiers and spouses walking together,
dancing together against the sunlight,
our voices multiplying,
hand by hand soldiers and spouses,
on Sunday, on Sunday.

Be quiet, big kids don't cry
Be quiet, big kids don't cry

Soldiers and spouses walking together,
dancing together against the sunlight,
our voices multiplying,
soldiers and spouses walking in peace.

Bonn-Bonns

Some weeks ago I was in Bonn, the ex capital city of West Germany. There you can visit for free the House of history, telling the history of Germany after the Second World War. The most exciting part was about the fall of that wall.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bmNR-AtnGQs&feature=related

All those people passing under the Brandenburger Tor, celebrating the re-union of the country. That came when nobody was expecting that to happen anymore.

...why did Germans stop celebrating?

Sommellier

Funny...
http://www.chetempochefa.rai.it/TE_videoteca/1,10916,1093110,00.html
sometimes you look around and you would never think that there are so intelligent men around you. How hard is it make people laugh... Spending so much time to understand what will lead the other to turn their glance into a smile.
I like smiles.

Today I went hiking at Waldstadion... sunny November... I like autumn. Usually I don't like it. But this autumn is so mild, you have to love it!