un paese civile

...la liberta' e l'ugugaglianza...

wash away

tears washed away some stuff yesterday evening.

stuff that it is good to leave in 2010.

and live rejoicing every, every day

Erleuchtete Fenster

Today I was at the dentist's and I ran into this column. I loved it. So I got it copied from the secretaries and translated it.
Taken from the German magazine Brigitte, the author is Julia Karnick, freely translated by me:


The most beautiful aspect of the dark season is that the cities are transformed into giant aquaria: you go through dark streets and can stare through the glass into the windows of lit kitchens and living rooms and watch the people as they swim back and forth surrounded by their furniture. It always seems like you are doing something, which is a little bit prohibited. I love that.

The most beautiful of all aquarium-streets of Hamburg is the Isestraße. Left and right of the Isestraße are wall to wall multistory apartment houses in Wilhelminian style, in the houses are rich old historic apartments, in the apartments live well-earning people. In the middle of the Isestraße runs an iron bridge, on the bridge runs every five minutes the elevated railway. If on a November or January dark late afternoon you travel with the elevated train through the Isestraße at supper time, while traveling past you can look in the dinner plate of the inhabitants of the Isestrasse - which from a distance are as big as dollhouses: in the kitchens or dining rooms couples and families sit at massive tables under stucco ceilings; above them hang candelabra or other lamps which were so expensive that they are called not simply lights, but 'luminous objects'. The luminous objects emit a warm golden glow. The warm golden glow has the strange effect that of the people which are illuminated by this glow one cannot even imagine that they cheat on their partners, abuse their children, blaspheme their colleagues, drink too much , or get intestinal flu.

The inhabitants of the Isestrasse have so little against the fact that one looks into their homes as the Calvinism-oriented inhabitants of the Netherlands, where large at-ground-level street-facing curtain-free windows deliver the message: 'We have nothing to hide'. Only that the inhabitants of the Isestrasse maybe go one step further: 'We have something to show'. Luminous objects, for example.

I grew up in a suburb where in front of each window were hanging curtains and quite many neighborhood residents were living in the cold glow of white neon tubes or, if they were very very hard on it, in the almost-frosty glow of purple translucent neon lights. In this light appeared, reasonably veiled by curtains, all sort of things: murder, intrigue, depravity. My parents had a kitchen curtain, however in the living room behind it many small cozy lamps lit my happy childhood. Still, every time I traveled through the Isestraße as a teenager, I thought: "When I grow up, I also want to live behind such a curtain-less window, where you enjoy to look and to let look."

Later I moved out and I lived in my own apartments. After each move, I have made the street test. I switched on the lights in the rooms which faced the street. I went outside. I stood on the street; the higher we lived the farther away from our house I had to stand in order to be able to see what I wanted to see. I imagined that I was not I and my apartment was not mine. Then I watched myself in the window, verifying.

Yes, I probably have a screw loose. What I saw never reached the approximate standard of the Isestrasse, but mostly I was reasonably satisfied, sometimes even quite happy. Then I went back inside.


Just to have an idea of what we are talking about: the elevated railway, the houses in Wilhelminian style, and one of these windows...

I expereinced something similar on the elevated railway in Sydney, though there it was summer, full daylight and I could see people in their offices...

Saramago

Inside us there is something that has no name, that something is what we are.

There are plenty of reasons not to put up with the world as it is.

and my favorites:

Human vocabulary is still not capable, and probably never will be, of knowing, recognizing, and communicating everything that can be humanly experienced and felt.

Words were not given to man in order to conceal his thoughts.

Xmas recipe

take a bunch of friends, some mulled wine, chocolate, snow, good mood and start singing.

it's a recipe that warms your heart. if you believe in Xmas. or if not.

take care

nessuno me lo ha mai detto, o promesso. ma io la vivo così.

per me quasi sempre passare la notte con qualcuno è un reciproco scambio. voglio dire, non è un legame che uno ha con tutti. e io tra le altre cose ci vedo una specie di implicita promessa di rispetto, di prendersi cura dell'altro. lo so, non è vero. spesso un tale messaggio non è neanche implicato da una relazione, figurati da una o più notti trascorse insieme.

però qualche volta nella mia vita ha funzionato così. e mi piacerebbe pensare che questo vale in generale.

notti insonni

avevo un amico di notti insonni. purtroppo credo di averlo perso along the way.

peccato. e ora le notti insonni sono un po' più solitarie.

cold

when you're on the outside baby and you can`t get in
i will show you you're so much better than you know
when you're lost and you're alone and you cant get back again
i will find you darling and i will bring you home

and if you want to cry
i am here to dry your eyes
and in no time
you'll be fine

you think i'd leave your side baby
you know me better than that
you think id leave you down when you're down on your knees
i wouldn't do that
i'll tell you you're right when you (want)
ha ah ah ah ah ah
and if only you could see into me

oh when you're cold
i'll be there
hold you tight to me
when you're low
i'll be there
by your side baby

hold on

the end of the year seems a good time for a change. because there must be a change.

how am I gonna do it? Well, I have a couple of ideas and a couple of them I will have to get along the way.

1. yoga every day

2. meals without tv

3. no past. NO PAST. no past.

hold on, magnolia, hold on. keep going.

because the person in the mirror is just the person I decide to be.

il meccansimo

domande lasciate aperte. mai risposte. chissà se ne riceveranno mai una.

chissà.

oggi mi hai mandato un sms. dopo anni di silenzio, o quasi. dopo anni di indifferenza. e hai risvegliato un po' di cose. quella insicurezza. quella paura che non sarò mai come gli altri. quella paura di rimanere sempre e comunque in seconda fila. perchè a me si vuole bene da subito. ma mai più di quello. perchè io sono l'amica di. punto.

...ti pensavo. quanti ricordi... quante esperienze... quanti momenti belli o meno... mi manchiamo. ti voglio bene magnolia.

somehow i forgot

I tried to be a boy
I tried to be a girl
I tried to be a mess
I tried to be the best
I guess I did it wrong

...

I tried to stay ahead
I tried to stay on top
I tried to play the part
But somehow I forgot
Just what I did it for
And why I wanted more

...

I’m drinkin’ a soy latte, I get a double shoté
It goes right through my body and you know I’m satisfied
...
I do yoga and Pilates and the room is full of hotties
So I’m checkin’ out the bodies and you know I’m satisfied
I’m diggin’ on the isotopes, this metaphysics s*** is dope
And if all this can give me hope you know I’m satisfied

Primo

"Devo dire che l'esperienza di Auschwitz è stata tale per me da spazzare qualsiasi resto di educazione religiosa che pure ho avuto. C'è Auschwitz, dunque non può esserci Dio. Non trovo una soluzione al dilemma. La cerco, ma non la trovo."

Voi che vivete sicuri
nelle vostre tiepide case,
voi che trovate tornando a sera
il cibo caldo e visi amici:
Considerate se questo è un uomo
che lavora nel fango
che non conosce pace
che lotta per mezzo pane
che muore per un si o per un no.
Considerate se questa è una donna,
senza capelli e senza nome
senza più forza di ricordare
vuoti gli occhi e freddo il grembo
come una rana d'inverno.
Meditate che questo è stato:
vi comando queste parole.
Scolpitele nel vostro cuore
stando in casa andando per via,
coricandovi, alzandovi.
Ripetetele ai vostri figli.
O vi si sfaccia la casa,
la malattia vi impedisca,
i vostri nati torcano il viso da voi.

like the sunshine

Change your heart
Look around you
Change your heart
It will astound you
I need your lovin'
Like the sunshine

Everybody's gotta learn sometime
Everybody's gotta learn sometime
Everybody's gotta learn sometime

ogni tanto mi chiedo cosa sia che io devo imparare. chiaramente devo imparare. perchè non funziona. perchè lo schema si ripete volta dopo volta. mirare in alto e arrivare secondi. sfiorare la meta e poi inciampare. perchè?
dove sbaglio? dove?

why else

this is gonna be good.

why else would I be crying?


musicaling in the morning

travel back in time...

...meet the past me and ask her: "why the hell do you wanna get a Ph.D.?????????"

but I haven't met you yet

I miss you
But I haven't met you yet
So special
But it hasn't happened yet
You are gorgeous
But I haven't met you yet
I remember
But it hasn't happened yet

And if you believe in dreams
Or what is more important
That a dream can come true
I, I will meet you
I was peaking

But it hasn't happened yet
I haven't been given
My best souvenir
I miss you
But I haven't met you yet
I know your habits
But wouldn't recognize you yet

And if you believe in dreams
Or what is more important
That a dream can come true
I miss you

I'm so impatient
I can't stand the wait
When will I get my cuddle?
Who are you?
I know by now that you'll arrive
By the time I stop waiting
I miss you

naturally curly hair

here are explained the causes of my ambition

nuovo

sento la necessita' di avere nuovi ricordi a cui aggrapparmi, nuove braccia nelle quali perdermi, nuovi occhi a cui sorridere.

i ricordi vecchi sono ormai sbiaditi, abbelliti e idealizzati sotto lo strato di polvere. Quelle braccia e quegli occhi sembrano gli unici possibili. ma non e' vero.

e nonostante queste temperature gelide mi sento viva come da molto tempo ormai non succedeva. rapiscimi, istinto, cancella quel senso del dovere e quel desiderio di raggiungere obiettivi.

Narciso parole di burro
si sciolgono sotto l'alito della passione
Narciso trasparenza e mistero
cospargimi di olio alle mandorle e vanità modellami…

Raccontami le storie che ami inventare spaventami
raccontami le nuove esaltanti vittorie
Conquistami inventami
dammi un'altra identità
stordiscimi disarmami e infine colpisci
abbracciami ed ubriacami
di ironia e sensualità

mi sento svuotata

guadagnarsi il rispetto

Spero che la Sua ricerca di fede abbia un seguito ulteriore e che Lei possa un poco alla volta riscoprire il valore oggettivo di molte realta' che al presente possono risultarLe per tanti motivi, anche contingenti, offuscate. Il dialogo aperto della preghiera potra' contribuire non poco ad aprire molte strade perche' aiuta a superare ostacoli che a volte paiono insormontabili.

grazie. per avermi mostrato ancora una volta che c'e' della bellezza e del candore.

Hurry down the chimney tonight!

Santa Baby,
Just slip a sable under the tree
For me
Been an awful good girl
Santa Baby,
So hurry down the chimney tonight

Santa baby,
A 54 convertible too
Light blue
I'll wait up for you, dear
Santa baby,
So hurry down the chimney tonight

Think of all the fun I've missed
Think of all the Fella's that I haven't kissed
Next year I could be just as good
If you'll check out my Christmas list

Santa Baby,
I want a yacht and really that's not
A lot
Been an angel all year
Santa Baby,
So hurry down the chimney tonight

Santa Honey,
one little thing i really need
The deed
To a platinum mine
Santa Baby,
So hurry down the chimney tonight

Santa cutie,
Fill my stocking with a duplex
And checks
Sign your 'x' on the line
Santa cutie,
and hurry down the chimney tonight

Come and trim my Christmas tree
With some decorations bought at Tiffany's
I really do believe in you
Let´s see if you believe in me

Santa Baby,
Forgot to mention one little thing
A ring
I don't mean on the phone
Santa Baby,
So hurry down the chimney tonight
Hurry down the chimney tonight
Hurry...tonight

the way I feel

I found these great photos.

they perfectly express the way one feels some days.

when it is raining and you are traveling by train on your own.

to a dear person.

or back from a trip.

wondering about the future.

or having the blues.

The photos were taken by Adriano Zanni under the license Creative Commons

risate

Hi, Amy, it's mom.

[...]

I thought I would give you a little list of the things that I wish for you.

Well, there's the obvious. An education. Family. Friends. And a life that is full of the unexpected.

Be sure to make mistakes. Make a lot of them, because there's no better way to learn and to grow

And I want you to spend a lot of time at the ocean, because the ocean forces you to dream, and I insist that you, my girl, be a dreamer.

God. I've never really believed in god. In fact, I've spent a lot of time and energy trying to disprove that god exists. But I hope that you are able to believe in god, because the thing that I've come to realize, sweetheart... is that it just doesn't matter if god exists or not. The important thing is for you to believe in something, because I promise you that that belief will keep you warm at night, and I want you to feel safe always.

And then there's love. I want you to love to the tips of your fingers, and when you find that love, wherever you find it, whoever you choose, don't run away from it. But you don't have to chase after it either. You just be patient, and it'll come to you, I promise

[..]

And remember, to love is to live.

mark twain

Sommer ist die Zeit, in der es zu heiß ist, um das zu tun, wozu es im Winter zu kalt war.

november rain?

Nope, november snow :)

Yep!

E' Natale, non soffrire piu'...

I'm dreaming of a white Christmas
Just like the ones I used to know
Where the treetops glisten,
and children listen
To hear sleigh bells in the snow

Quisque

Quisque faber fortunae suae

La polvere

"molto lontano, tipo... a Ivrea"

carry on

Would you know my name
If I saw you in heaven
Will it be the same
If I saw you in heaven
I must be strong, and carry on
Cause I know I don't belong
Here in heaven

Would you hold my hand
If I saw you in heaven
Would you help me stand
If I saw you in heaven
I'll find my way, through night and day
Cause I know I just can't stay
Here in heaven

Time can bring you down
Time can bend your knee
Time can break your heart
Have you begging please
Begging please

Beyond the door
There's peace I'm sure.
And I know there'll be no more...
Tears in heaven

back then

ci sono periodi della vita che li vivi e cred iche sarà sempre così. speri che sarà sempre così. ma non è così. cambiamo noi, cambiano i tempi, cambiano le situazioni. e allora dobbiamo sempre riadattarci, modellarci.

ma a volte non vogliamo che una situazione cambi. e lì scatta la malinconia.

io non l'ho ancora mai veramente accettato quel cambiamento. sembra che tutto sia cambiato da allora, tranne il modo in cui mi sento io. il mio sogno assomiglia ancora tanto a quello.

evolvere.

gut Ding...

...braucht Weil

il male di vivere

my immortal

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along

bring me to life

love the way you lie

part 2

credo

credo nei grandi uomini.

credo nell'amore. quello tra due amanti.

ma soprattutto in quello con la A maiuscola. l'amore tra due rappresentanti della specie umana. quell'amore che si manifesta nell'amicizia, nell'affetto familiare. ma anche piu' semplicemente nel sorriso verso uno sconosciuto. o piu' nobilmente nella lotta per la liberta' di altri. per la vita di altri.

credo in quell'amore che Anna descriveva cosi'

"Ecco che cos'è difficile in quest'epoca: gli ideali, i sogni e le belle aspettative non fanno neppure in tempo a nascere che già vengono colpiti e completamente devastati dalla realtà più crudele. È molto strano che io non abbia abbandonato tutti i miei sogni perché sembrano assurdi e irrealizzabili. Invece me li tengo stretti, nonostante tutto, perché credo tuttora all'intima bontà dell'uomo.
Mi è proprio impossibile costruire tutto sulla base della morte, della miseria e della confusione. Vedo che il mondo lentamente si trasforma in un deserto, sento sempre più forte il rombo che si avvicina, che ucciderà anche noi, sono partecipe del dolore di milioni di persone, eppure, quando guardo il cielo, penso che tutto tornerà a volgersi al bene, che anche questa durezza spietata finirà, e che nel mondo torneranno tranquillità e pace. Nel frattempo devo conservare alti i miei ideali, che forse nei tempi a venire si potranno ancora realizzare!"

Credo nell'intima bonta' dell'uomo.

Credo che ognuno di noi possa fare la differenza. Credo nella pace. Credo nel rispetto.

Amen

Article 18

Everyone has the right to freedom of thought, conscience and religion; this right includes freedom to change his religion or belief, and freedom, either alone or in community with others and in public or private, to manifest his religion or belief in teaching, practice, worship and observance.

I like the way it hurts

Just gonna stand there
And watch me burn
But that's alright
Because I like
The way it hurts
Just gonna stand there
And hear me cry
But that's alright
Because I love
The way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

I can't tell you what it really is
I can only tell you what it feels like
And right now there's a steel knife
In my windpipe
I can't breathe
But I still fight
While I can fight
As long as the wrong feels right
It's like I'm in flight
High of a love
Drunk from the hate
It's like I'm huffing paint
And I love it the more that I suffer
I suffocate
And right before i'm about to drown
She resuscitates me
She fucking hates me
And I love it
Wait
Where you going
I'm leaving you
No you ain't
Come back
We're running right back
Here we go again
It's so insane
Cause when it's going good
It's going great
I'm Superman
With the wind in his bag
She's Lois Lane
But when it's bad
It's awful
I feel so ashamed
I snap
Who's that dude
I don't even know his name
I laid hands on her
I'll never stoop so low again
I guess I don't know my own strength

Just gonna stand there
And watch me burn
But that's alright
Because I like
The way it hurts
Just gonna stand there
And hear me cry
But that's alright
Because I love
The way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

You ever love somebody so much
You can barely breathe
When you're with them
You meet
And neither one of you
Even know what hit 'em
Got that warm fuzzy feeling
Yeah them chills
Used to get 'em
Now you're getting fucking sick
Of looking at 'em
You swore you've never hit 'em
Never do nothing to hurt 'em
Now you're in each other's face
Spewing venom
And these words
When you spit 'em
You push
Pull each other's hair
Scratch, claw, bit 'em
Throw 'em down
Pin 'em
So lost in the moments
When you're in 'em
It's the rage that took over
It controls you both
So they say it's best
To go your separate ways
Guess that they don't know ya
Cause today
That was yesterday
Yesterday is over
It's a different day
Sound like broken records
Playin' over
But you promised her
Next time you'll show restraint
You don't get another chance
Life is no Nintendo game
But you lied again
Now you get to watch her leave
Out the window
Guess that's why they call it window pane

Just gonna stand there
And watch me burn
But that's alright
Because I like
The way it hurts
Just gonna stand there
And hear me cry
But that's alright
Because I love
The way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

Now I know we said things
Did things
That we didn't mean
And we fall back
Into the same patterns
Same routine
But your temper's just as bad
As mine is
You're the same as me
But when it comes to love
You're just as blinded
Baby please come back
It wasn't you
Baby it was me
Maybe our relationship
Isn't as crazy as it seems
Maybe that's what happens
When a tornado meets a volcano
All I know is
I love you too much
To walk away though
Come inside
Pick up your bags off the sidewalk
Don't you hear sincerity
In my voice when I talk
Told you this is my fault
Look me in the eyeball
Next time I'm pissed
I'll aim my fist
At the dry wall
Next time
There will be no next time
I apologize
Even though I know it's lies
I'm tired of the games
I just want her back
I know I'm a liar
If she ever tries to fucking leave again
I'mma tie her to the bed
And set the house on fire

Just gonna stand there
And watch me burn
But that's alright
Because I like
The way it hurts
Just gonna stand there
And hear me cry
But that's alright
Because I love
The way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

a proposito di arcobaleni

Someday I'll wish upon a star
and wake up
where the clouds are far behind me
Where troubles melt like lemon drops
away above the chimney tops
that's where you'll find me

perturbation

insieme al godimento
c'è il desiderio di fermare il tempo

vi prego consolatevi dei pianti
la vita la stringete in mezzo ai fianchi

sogno

Sogno, qualcosa di buono
che mi illumini il mondo
buono come te...
Che ho bisogno, di qualcosa di vero
che illumini il cielo
proprio come te!!!

croci

quella sensazione che ogni giorno richieda uno sforzo, un'energia, che non sempre ti senti di avere. quell'impegno necessario a migliorarsi, a fare quel che dovresti e non fare quel che non dovresti.

ecco quello sforzo e quell'impegno necessari a volte mi sembrano enormi. mi chiedo se e' solo a me che venga richiesto un tale dispendio di energia. e quando anche riesco a fare tutto 'come dovrei', ancora mi sembra solo di aver raggiunto una vita normale. ma non piena e completa come la desidererei.

ognuno ha la sua croce, ci hanno insegnato. e a volte pesa tanto quella croce.

"Anche la lotta verso la cima basta a riempire il cuore di un uomo. Bisogna immaginare Sisifo felice." (Albert Camus)

Il faut imaginer Sisyphe heureux.

"Sai, prima di incontrarti pensavo che non avrei mai più visto degli occhi come i suoi. Ci sono persone che quando ti guardano pretendono tutto, senza chiedere niente." (Paolo Maurensig)

Luck ain't even lucky
Got to make your own breaks

It's my life
And it's now or never
I ain't gonna live forever
I just want to live while I'm alive
(It's my life)
My heart is like an open highway
Like Frankie said
I did it my way
I just want to live while I'm alive
'Cause it's my life

Better stand tall when they're calling you out
Don't bend, don't break, baby, don't back down
(Bon Jovi)

wednesday morning

The beauty of the day is hidden behind the clouds.

or maybe it's just me, having a harder time seeing it.

hello, loneliness

Bye bye, love.
Bye bye, happiness.
Hello, loneliness.
I think I'm a-gonna cry-y.

Bye bye, love.
Bye bye, sweet caress.
Hello, emptiness.
I feel like I could di-ie.
Bye bye, my love, goodby-ye.

There goes my baby
With-a someone new.
She sure looks happy.
I sure am blue.
She was my baby
'Til he stepped in.
Goodbye to romance
That might have been.

Bye bye, love.
Bye bye, happiness.
Hello, loneliness.
I think I'm a-gonna cry-y.

Bye bye, love.
Bye bye, sweet caress.
Hello, emptiness.
I feel like I could di-ie.
Bye bye, my love, goodby-ye.

I'm a-through with romance.
I'm a-through with love.
I'm through with-a countin'
The stars above
And here's reason
That I'm so free:
My lovin' baby
Is a-through with me.

Bye bye, love.
Bye bye, happiness.
Hello, loneliness.
I think I'm a-gonna cry-y.

Bye bye, love.
Bye bye, sweet caress.
Hello, emptiness.
I feel like I could di-ie.
Bye bye, my love, goodby-ye.
Bye bye, my love, goodby-ye.
Bye bye, my love, goodby-ye

they can notice the changes

You know
Everybody’s talking bout
About how different I am
I guess they can notice
the changes
The way I walk
They way I talk
Believe it or not baby
I can feel it here inside of me

You turn my whole world, around
Yes Darling, it’s true love I’ve found

Never, have I ever     Met a girl like you—
So warm, So tender   -  Completely New
You changed me, Rearranged Me    With new meaning in my life
No more sadness or madness   No more lonely nights
It’s Over    girl It’s Over my dear
Cause you’re here  ooohh, you’re here

You turn my whole world, around
Oooh baby
It’s True Love I have found
You turn my whole world, around
And darling its True Love I’ve found

I’m giving and I’m living     My Life for you
Whenever, Whatever    You want I’ll doooo
Cause I’m crazy, bout you baby      You’ve fulfilled my life
No more sadness or madness   No more lonely nights
It’s Over    girl It’s Over my dear
Cause you’re here  ooohh, oohh, you’re here

You turn my whole world, around
Oooh baby
It’s True Love I’ve found
You turn my whole world, Upside Down
Oooh baby
It’s True Love I’ve found

All it took.    Baby you were ALL that it Took
To take a man from a world that was completely all blue
To turn me around and Plant my feet   on solid ground

only one like you

My first, my last, my everything,
And the answer to all my dreams.
You're my sun, my moon, my guiding star.
My kind of wonderful, that's what you are.

I know there's only, only one like you
There's no way they could have made two.
You're, you're all I'm living for
Your love I'll keep for evermore.
You're the first, my last, my everything.

In you I've found so many things,
A love so new, only you could bring.
Can't you see if you,
You'll make me feel this way,
You're like a first morning dew on a brand new day.

I see so many ways that I can love you,
'Till the day I die....
You're my reality, yet I'm lost in a dream.
You're my first, my last, my everything.

I know there's only one, only one like you
There's no way they could have made two.
Girl, you're my reality.
But I'm lost in a dream,
You're the first, you're the last, my everything.

tedio

Tedio domenicale: quanta droga consuma
Tedio domenicale: quanti amori frantuma
Tedio domenicale
Sophia Sapienza Sophia
Incalora le donne ed arde
Arde di uomini
E gli consuma il cuore

Toccami
Magari solo in sogno
Soffia
Sussurra un'altra volta "vivi"
Io lo sarò
Guardami
Tra le nuvole e i veli
Soffia
Sussurra un'altra volta "vivi"
E io vivrò
Vivrò l'ordine la libertà l'obbedienza
La responsabilità l'uguaglianza
Vivrò la gerarchia l'onore la punizione
Vivrò la libertà d'opinione
La sicurezza il rischio la proprietà
Vivrò la verità che è l'ultima
La prima
La verità ti fa male lo so
Cittadine cittadini
Pargoli enfants teen-agers babies
This is the program, è senza prezzo:
L'antico è favolistico folklore grezzo
Il moderno è iniziato e finito
Voilà l'età del mezzo liberodemocraticoprogresso
Larallalla larallallallalla
Larallalla larallallallalla
Voilà l'età del mezzo liberodemocraticoprogresso
Il moderno è iniziato e finito
L'antico è favolistico folklore grezzo
Cittadine cittadini
Cittadine cittadini
Cittadine cittadini (Larallalla larallallallalla)
Cittadine cittadini
Larallalla larallallallalla...
Tedio domenicale: quanta droga consuma
Tedio domenicale: quanti amori frantuma
Tedio domenicale
Tedio domenicale: quanta droga consuma
Tedio domenicale: quanti amori frantuma
Guarda Sophia, (tedio domenicale...)
Guarda la vita che vola via!
Guarda Sophia,
Guarda la vita che vola via!
Guarda la vita!
Guardala che vola via!
Facevi 'a pizza a Pozzuoli e 'a burina a Roma
E mmò tu fai la Svizzera abbiti a Nuova York
Sophia bella Sophia
Sophia delle altrui brame
Mmmh... quant'è bello in progress 'sto cazzo di reame!
Tedio domenicale: quanta droga consuma
Tedio domenicale: quanti amori frantuma
Tedio domenicale: quanta droga consuma
Tedio domenicale: quanti amori frantuma...

today's menu

music from Austria

i hob in kalender gschaud
heut geht da wind
dann kummt a wng a lüfterl
und de woikn de verschindt
und i hob in kalender gschaud
heut geht da wind
dass so is und ned anders is
wer hodn des bestimmt
und i hob in kalender gschaud
heut geht da wind
und des um wos es ged grad oiss
des ändert se oft gschwind
und i hob in kalender gschaud
heut geht da wind
des schaud vo vron anders aus
ganz anders wia ho hindt
und i hob in kalender gschaud
heut geht da wind
im hefn is a loch drin gwen
wo d´Suppn aussa rind
und i hob in kalender gschaud
heut geht da wind
es is so weid ganz gmüatlich
bis auf des das oana spind
und i hob in kalender gschaud
heut geht da wind
oft redns an so an bledsinn zsam
des hod se neamd verdient
und i hob in kalender gschaud
heut geht da wind
das kana vo wos gwusd hod
des gibts ned das des stimmt
und i hob in kalender gschaud
heut geht da wind

i hob in kalender gschaud
heut geht da wind
heut duad eam goa koa fuas ned weh
drum gehd a so beschwingd
und i hob in kalender gschaud
heut geht da wind
wo hosd as den dei weyche hand
damit is da verbindt
i hob in kalender gschaud
heut geht da wind
am gscheidan du versteckst de iatz
bevor de no wer findt
und i hob in kalender gschaud
heut geht da wind
es is ja koa geheimnis
das des meisde goaned stimmt
und i hob in kalender gschaud
heut geht da wind

es is ned oiwai so gwen
das da schnellste oiwai gwingd
und i hob in kalender gschaud
heut geht da wind
do iss so furchdbar sauba do
wo is da ganze grind
und i hob in kalender gschaud
heut geht da wind
i was ned wo is hi do hob
wea was ob es no find
i hob in kalender gschaud
heut geht da wind
schau da o wos do is
und bass auf wos ois verschwindt
und i hob in kalender gschaud
heut geht da wind
zearscht kummt eam des so langsam vor
und nochad dann so gschwind
und i hob in kalender gschaud
heut geht da wind
i hob des scho vergessen iatz
ja woast wer alles singt
i hob in kalender gschaud
heut geht da wind
man kunt iatz a no weida doa
wer woas obs des iatz bringd
und i hob in kalender gschaud
heut geht da wind
bleib hoid no a zeidl do
do gfrein sa se bestimmt
und i hob in kalender gschaud
heut geht da wind

Breakfast at Starbucks

who are you today a perplexing question I knew when I awoke then after that first cup i change don't we all but that's not the issue give me a moment to think another cup, but what a sunny Costa Ricca a moody Ethiopian Harrer a coffee drink cappucino Frappucino latte what too many choices slow down relax a moment to think they ask again: how are you today What's that how, not who I answer quickly fine thank you and how are you they looked confused as I await an answer

...

I found God
On the corner of first and Amistad

shake your tailfeather

Twist it, shake it, shake it, shake it, shake it baby
Hey we gonna loop de loop
Shake it out baby
Hey we gonna loop de li
Bend over let me see ya shake your tailfeather
Bend over let me see ya shake your tailfeather
Come on let me see ya shake your tailfeather
Come on let me see ya shake your tailfeather
Aaah

Come on, come on baby
Come on, yeah, come on babe, alright

Do the twist
Do the fly
Do the swim
And do the bird
Well do the duck
Aaah, and do the monkey
Hey hey, watusi
And, ah, what about the frug
Do the mashed potato
What about the boogaloo
Oh, the bony marony
Come on let's do the twist
Aaah

Twist it, shake it, shake it, shake it, shake it baby
Twist it, shake it, shake it, shake it, shake it baby

perche'

perche' essere felici per una vita intera sarebbe quasi insopportabile

corsivo

People are about as much happy as they make up their minds to be

lost my light

Sometimes I feel I've got to
Run away I've got to
Get away
From the pain that you drive
into the heart of me
The love we share
Seems to go nowhere
And I've lost my light
For I toss and turn I
can't sleep at night

i won't

Please lock me away
And don't allow the day
Here inside where I hide
With my loneliness

I don't care what they say I won't stay
In a world without love

Birds sing out of tune
And rain clouds hide the moon
I'm OK, here I'll stay
With my loneliness

I don't care what they say I won't stay
In a world without love

So I wait and in a while
I will see my true love's smile
She may come, I know not when
When she does I lose
So baby until then

Lock me away
And don't allow the day
Here inside where I hide
With my loneliness

I don't care what they say I won't stay
In a world without love

=)

Short people got no reason
short people got no reason
short people got no reason to live
they've got little hands, little eyes
they're walking round telling great big lies
they've got little noses, tiny little teeth
they wear platform shoes on their nasty little feet and I
don't want no short people
don't want no short people
don't want no short people around here
short people got nobody
short people got nobody
short people got nobody to love
they've got little baby legs, stand so low
got to pick 'em up just to say hello (hello!)
little cars going beep, beep, beep
they've got little voices going peep, peep, peep
grubby little fingers, dirty little minds
they're gonna get you everytime and I
don't want no short people
don't want no short people
don't want no short people around here
in this beautiful world
(short people are just the same as you and I) fault of design
(all men are brothers till the day they die)
it's a wonderful world, it's a wonderful world
yeah, it's a beautiful world
don't want no short people, in this beautiful world

gocce

They are drops of memory
These new tears.
We are souls in an
Unforgettable story.
The endless number of times
you'll come looking for me in my empty rooms.
Priceless
and elusive is your absence, that belongs to me.
We are indivisible,
We are similar and fragile,
And we are already so distant.

With ice in my mind
I'm running to you,
We are in the same fate
Which sharply will change us.
We expect only a sign,
A fate, an eternity
And tell me how can I reach you now,
R you now, you.

We are drops of a past
That can not come back.
This time, betrayed us, it is elusive.
I will tell about you,
I'll invent for what we do not have.
The promises are broken
Like rain on us
Words are tired, but I know that you'll listen to me.
We look forward to another journey, a destiny, a truth
And tell me how can I reach you now,
Reach you now, reach you
_____________________________
Sono gocce di memoria
Queste lacrime nuove
Siamo anime in una storia
Incancellabile
Le infinte volte che
Mi verrai a cercare nelle mie stanze vuote
Inestimabile
E’ inafferrabile la tua assenza che mi appartiene
Siamo indivisibili
Siamo uguali e fragili
E siamo già così lontani
Con il gelo nella mente
Sto correndo verso te
Siamo nella stessa sorte
Che tagliente ci cambierà
Aspettiamo solo un segno
Un destino, un’eternità
E dimmi come posso fare per raggiungerti adesso
Per raggiungerti adesso, per raggiungere te
Siamo gocce di un passato
Che non può più tornare
Questo tempo ci ha tradito, è inafferabile
Racconterò di te
Inventerò per te quello che non abbiamo
Le promesse sono infrante
Come pioggia su di noi
Le parole sono stanche, ma so che tu mi ascolterai
Aspettiamo un altro viaggio, un destino, una verità
E dimmi come posso fare per raggiungerti adesso
Per raggiungerti adesso, per raggiungere te

sent away

Once upon a time
A long time ago
I thought that I should leave you
I thought that you should go
I never really said goodbye
I never even heard you cry
And after all this time, it's hard to say
The only love I had, I sent away

Ah, but you were young
Younger than I knew
I hope you can forgive me
I was younger too
I really thought that I could see
What was best for you and me
Though after all this time, it's hard to say
'Cause the only love I had, I sent away

Sometimes as I lay here in the dark
I wonder where you're sleeping
If you think of me at all
Are you warm?
Are you happy where you are?
Do you sometimes feel like weeping when the summers turn to fall?
Do you think of me at all?

And so I send this out
Wherever you may be
To tell you I still love you
You're still a part of me
And if you could ever find a way
I'll be hoping for the day
When you can smile at me and tell me it's okay
That the only love I had, I sent away

Ellen DeGeneres

You have to stay in shape. My grandmother, she started walking five miles a day when she was 60. She's 97 today and we don't know where the hell she is.

I ask people why they have deer heads on their walls. They always say because it's such a beautiful animal. There you go. I think my mother is attractive, but I have photographs of her.

In the beginning there was nothing. God said, 'Let there be light!' And there was light. There was still nothing, but you could see it a whole lot better.

having feet

http://bestthing.info/top.html

I love position 17:

Having feet. It's pretty awesome.

I couldn't agree more!

tears

today I was so near to crying. at German class. and that afternoon came to my mind.

I still used to live in my old apartment. I think it was spring, maybe Saturday afternoon, or Sunday afternoon. We had just made love. And you told me about your fears, your story. And a tear touched your cheek.

I hope that life is being good with you. And you have changed your mind. Two more years.

I've been down this road
Walking the line that's painted by pride
And i have made mistakes in my life that i just can't hide.

But I believe I'm ready
for what love has to bring
I've got myself together
Now i'm ready to sing.

I've been searching my soul tonight
I know there's so much more to life
Now I know I can shine a light
to find my way back home.

Baby.
Yeah.
Oh Yeah.

I think I need to believe that it works - love, couplehood, partnerships. The idea that when people come together they stay together...I have to take that with me to bed every night, even if I'm going to bed alone.
Ally

journey to Portugal

Il viaggio non finisce mai.

Solo i viaggiatori finiscono.
E anche loro possono prolungarsi in memoria, in ricordo, in narrazione.

Quando il viaggiatore si è seduto sulla sabbia della spiaggia e ha detto: "Non c'è altro da vedere", sapeva che non era vero.

Bisogna vedere quel che non si è visto, vedere di nuovo quel che si è già visto, vedere in primavera quel che si è visto in estate, vedere di giorno quel che si è visto di notte, con il sole dove la prima volta pioveva, vedere le messi verdi, il frutto maturo, la pietra che ha cambiato posto, l'ombra che non c'era.

Bisogna ritornare sui passi già dati, per ripeterli, e per tracciarvi a fianco nuovi cammini.

Bisogna ricominciare il viaggio.
Sempre.

Il viaggiatore ritorna subito.

(da Viaggio in Portogallo, Jose' Saramago)

__________________

The journey never ends.

Only the number of travelers has an end.
And they too can endure through their memory, through narrative.

When the traveler sat on the sand of the beach and said: "There is nothing left to see," he knew that was not true.

You have to see what you have not seen, see again what you have already seen, see in the spring what you have seen in the summer, see during the day what you have seen at night, be with the sun where the first time it rained, see green crops, mature fruit, the stone which has changed place, the shadow that was not there.

One has to retrace steps already given, in order to repeat them, and to draw alongside new ways.

One has to start the journey once more.
Always.

The traveler immediately comes back.

(Journey in Portugal, Jose' Saramago)

love my BED

This morning I woke up thinking that I love my bed. I took an extra hour of sleep. simply wonderful.

then I realized that the word has a double meaning. B.E.D.

well, I do not love that. I am maybe learning to live with that, but I surely do not love it.

I liked this

To really create a life that's heart healthy, you have to take the broad view of what it means to "nourish" your heart. Good food is important, but it's equally important to nurture the emotional and spiritual hearts. If you "feed" your emotional heart first, you'll be less likely to look for physical ways (i.e., unhealthy foods) to fill that void. And when you do indulge, you'll be able to control the quantity and frequency you take in with more clarity.

http://www.yogajournal.com/lifestyle/2551?utm_source=EatingWisely&utm_medium=newsletter&utm_campaign=EatingWisely

80s and 90s

Friday evening. freezing. drinking a beer with a group of very German friends. Well, ok, sure, each of them drunk 10 beer. But I was sober. Though I had so much fun. And re-discovered a wonderful song.

Sucker love is heaven sent
You pucker up, our passion's spent
My heart's a tart, your body's rent
My body's broken, yours is spent

Carve your name into my arm
Instead of stressed, I lie here charmed
Cause there's nothing else to do
Every me and every you

Sucker love, a box I choose
No other box I choose to use
Another love I would abuse
No circumstances could excuse

In the shape of things to come
Too much poison come undone
Cause there's nothing else to do
Every me and every you

Sucker love is knowm to swing
Prone to cling and waste these things
Pucker up for heavens sake
There's never been so much at stake

I serve my head up on a plate
It's only comfort calling late
Cause there's nothing else to do
Every me and every you

Like the naked leads the blind
I know I'm selfish, I'm unkind
Sucker love I always find
Someone to bruise and leave behind

All alone in space and time
There's nothing here but what here's mine
Something borrowed, something blue
Every me and every you

Sucker love e' il paradiso mandato,
Tu ti avvicini per baciarmi, la nostra passione e' ormai consumata.
Il mio cuore è una torta, il tuo corpo e' in affitto,
Il mio corpo è rotto, il tuo è consumato.
Scolpire il tuo nome sul mio braccio
anziche' stressato, giaccio qui incantato.
Perchè non c'è niente altro da fare
Ogni me ed ogni te.

Sucker love, una scatola che scelgo
Ho scelto di non usare nessun'altra scatola,
Un altro amore di cui abuserei
Non potrebbe essere scusato da alcuna circostanza.
Nella forma delle cose a venire
Troppo veleno rimane inutilizzato
Perchè non c'è niente altro da fare
Ogni me ed ogni te.

Sucker amore è noto per oscillare
Incline ad aggrapparsi e rifiutare queste cose.
Pronto a baciare per l'amor di cieli,
Non c'è mai stato così tanto in gioco.
Io servo la mia testa su un piatto
E' solo la consolazione che chiama in ritardo.
Perchè non c'è niente altro da fare
Ogni me ed ogni te.

Come il nudo guida il cieco,
So di essere egoista, di essere cattivo.
Sucker love, trovo sempre
Qualcuno da ferire e lasciarmi alle spalle.
Tutto solo nello spazio e nel tempo
Non c'è niente qui, ma ciò che è qui mi appartiene.
Qualcosa di prestato, qualcosa di blu,
Ogni me ed ogni te.

notti bianche

(dedicato ad un nuovo lettore)

Ho sempre trovato fastidiosa la fase pre-sonno. Quei pensieri e preoccupazioni che ti tormentano.

Ho sempre amato addormentarmi di botto. O da piccola, quando dormivo con mai sorella, al pregavo di chiacchierare e di fare dei giochi 'parlati' finche' crollavamo addormentate. Oppure addormentarmi con la radio accesa, leggendo con la luce accesa, con la TV accesa.

Credo che nessuna di queste sia una sana abitudine. E cerco di impormi un sano rituale per addormentarmi. Non sempre ne ho la forza. Spesso mi concedo la lettura che trovo il 'male minore'.

E quando dormo con qualcuno puo' essere ancora peggio. Se l'altro si addormenta prima di te e ti lascia in quel limbo di pensieri con l'obbligo aggiuntivo di non fare rumore...

heute

kind of sad. but what can you do about that?

caro diario

Oggi e' una di quelle giornate in cui sento pressante il bisogno di contatto umano, di belle e calde parole. Non che sia qualcosa di inusuale per me.

E quindi mi ritrovo a scrivere e mandare mail e sms ad amici vecchi e nuovi con riflessioni, manifestazioni d'affetto o semplici 'come va?'. e altrettanti mesaggi che scrivo vengono direttamente cancellati prima di essere inviati.

perche'? perche' credo di essere in bisogno di contatto umano in misura 'superiore alla media'. e quindi qualche volta spavento, stufo, annoio. o semplicemente ottengo come risposta il silenzio. e siccome quel silenzio fa piu' male dell'assenza di contatti, sto provando ad imparare a trattenermi.

non e' una bella cosa da fare. ma l'esperienza mi ha insegnato che e' probabilmente cio' che mi tocca fare. e quindi sto imparando ad impegnare gran parte del mio tempo per me stessa ed eventualmente anche da sola. a coccolarmi. a provare a parlare con me. ad esprimermi in altri modi.

si sta avvicinando il 12 novembre. un anno fa quella data ha segnato il giorno in cui ti ho perso. forse perche' tu non eri pronto. forse perche' la mia vita spaventa. e da allora il cuore non ha piu' battuto cosi' forte. in modo positivo cio' mi ha portato tranquillita', fiducia in me, ottimismo, meno pianti, meno domande e tanto tempo per me. ma che peccato che per arrivare a questo ho dovuto camminare in direzione opposta a te, e non al tuo fianco.

one

I'm single because I was born that way. —Mae West

beautiful

I've been there. so scary. so hard.

One does not realize how hard it is. I happened not to be forgiven. But life goes on.

I’m lost and scared to live this life
I thought i’d always be strong
This rage this dark side i don’t want to see
Lays there... Lays there… lays there…

There on the bottom inside
Looking lost like a child
But i know that you’re mine
We only need…

Forgiveness our key to the world
Forgiveness i’m frightened to deserve
Forgiveness all that we need
It’s forgiveness i am not sure i know…

It was the love untaught
Trapped in your mind
So empty with me…
A silent stone that struck my heart
While i looked for a sign a sign…

You felt the pain
You felt the fear
But you chose not to see
Made it your destiny,
Is it time for…

Forgiveness... For we have paid
Forgiveness is our key to the world
Forgiveness for the love untaught
It’s forgiveness i’ll be... Waiting for…

Genesis: the fall of man

I just found it interesting and somehow fascinating.

¹ Now the serpent was more crafty than any of the wild animals the LORD God had made. He said to the woman, "Did God really say, 'You must not eat from any tree in the garden'?"

² The woman said to the serpent, "We may eat fruit from the trees in the garden, ³ but God did say, 'You must not eat fruit from the tree that is in the middle of the garden, and you must not touch it, or you will die.' "

⁴ "You will not surely die," the serpent said to the woman. ⁵ "For God knows that when you eat of it your eyes will be opened, and you will be like God, knowing good and evil."

⁶ When the woman saw that the fruit of the tree was good for food and pleasing to the eye, and also desirable for gaining wisdom, she took some and ate it. She also gave some to her husband, who was with her, and he ate it. ⁷ Then the eyes of both of them were opened, and they realized they were naked; so they sewed fig leaves together and made coverings for themselves.

⁸ Then the man and his wife heard the sound of the LORD God as he was walking in the garden in the cool of the day, and they hid from the LORD God among the trees of the garden. ⁹ But the LORD God called to the man, "Where are you?"

¹⁰ He answered, "I heard you in the garden, and I was afraid because I was naked; so I hid."

¹¹ And he said, "Who told you that you were naked? Have you eaten from the tree that I commanded you not to eat from?"

¹² The man said, "The woman you put here with me—she gave me some fruit from the tree, and I ate it."

¹³ Then the LORD God said to the woman, "What is this you have done?"
The woman said, "The serpent deceived me, and I ate."

¹⁴ So the LORD God said to the serpent, "Because you have done this,
"Cursed are you above all the livestock
and all the wild animals!
You will crawl on your belly
and you will eat dust
all the days of your life.

¹⁵ And I will put enmity
between you and the woman,
and between your offspring and hers;
he will crush your head,
and you will strike his heel."

¹⁶ To the woman he said,
"I will greatly increase your pains in childbearing;
with pain you will give birth to children.
Your desire will be for your husband,
and he will rule over you."

¹⁷ To Adam he said, "Because you listened to your wife and ate from the tree about which I commanded you, 'You must not eat of it,'
"Cursed is the ground because of you;
through painful toil you will eat of it
all the days of your life.

¹⁸ It will produce thorns and thistles for you,
and you will eat the plants of the field.

¹⁹ By the sweat of your brow
you will eat your food
until you return to the ground,
since from it you were taken;
for dust you are
and to dust you will return."

²⁰ Adam named his wife Eve, because she would become the mother of all the living.

²¹ The LORD God made garments of skin for Adam and his wife and clothed them. ²² And the LORD God said, "The man has now become like one of us, knowing good and evil. He must not be allowed to reach out his hand and take also from the tree of life and eat, and live forever." ²³ So the LORD God banished him from the Garden of Eden to work the ground from which he had been taken. ²⁴ After he drove the man out, he placed on the east side of the Garden of Eden cherubim and a flaming sword flashing back and forth to guard the way to the tree of life.