rain

parents are left, thoughts are on.

first, you can love people but still t ochoose something different from what they expect from you. and it feels bad to disappoint them.

second I was this morning thinking about that room. incredible how much it represents for me. I can still remember the long hours staring at the white ceiling, or that armchair, or the carpet. and it is incredible how the lives of 4 people are melted into that one room. and that is such a common thing. a room means so much to you. and then someone else starts living there and that room gains a thousand other meanings. and keeping a room waiting for you feels nice, but wrong at the same time. because you do not know where you are ending up...

third. things change radically in ways you never expected before. it was just one year ago. and now is nothing. a mail from time to time. and a thousand billion miles, what will never be covered again.

fourth. hugs. i always loved people who really hug you. and you can dislike them, but still when they hug you you feel life is worth it because out there there are some 7 billion people like you, looking for a meaning, waking up every day.